23-річна Конні Інгліс (Connie Inglis) з Англії з 10-річного віку боролася з анорексією. І лише три роки тому, після того як вона стала важити як п'ятирічна дитина, її поклали в лікарню. Їй вдалося подолати хворобу і тепер дівчина надихає інших соціальних мережах.

"Я не думала про те, помру я чи виживу. Я просто хотіла втратити вагу. Дійшло до того, що мені хотілося, щоб моє серце зупинилося. Це єдине, що задовольнило б мою анорексію", — розповідає Конні.

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⚠️trigger warning ⚠️ contains discussion of eating disorders THIS IS NOT A BEFORE AND AFTER!!! This is my take on recovery. It's hard. It's shit. And it takes a long ass time. Everybody's recovery is different and everybody's recovery is worthy! 💜 This is my recovery, but it's my recovery documented in 3 pictures which is NOTHING compared to what actually happened. They show my physical transformation but not my mental one. These pictures are of me but they don't define me. I'm Connie. Yes I've had anorexia. Yes I am a 'typical' anorexic with a shocking 'before' and a socially suitable 'after'. But honestly if that's why you think I'm an 'inspiration' you should look at the millions of people who have taken it into their own hands to recover too!!! So many people on social media are BEAUTIFUL RECOVERY WARRIORS TOO!! But they aren't recognised for that because they don't look like the medias portrayal of eating disorders. They don't have my body type, so they were turned away for help and called a liar when they say they've recovered from ED. But can I tell you something?! THEIR RECOVERY JOURNEYS ARE JUST AS WORTHY AND INSPIRING AS MINE!!!! And so is everyone else's!! 💜 💜 (I use before and afters because they help me to see how far I've come) 💜 But everyone's recovery is different and a LOT of people don't have "before" photos. They don't have the shock factor to show you. They were told throughout their ed that they look so much better now they've lost weight. And after been asked why the hell they put it all back on again?! They don't get praise from everyone for their recovery. They don't get people asking to write articles on 'how the big girl recovered from anorexia.' ..... But you do with me.! That's not ok. Everyone's recovery is valid! And everyone. No matter what is SO MUCH MORE THAN A BEFORE AND AFTER!!!!! #positivebeatsperfect

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У свої 20 вона ховала тіло під мішкуватим одягом, і ніхто не знав, що вона була важко хвора нервовою анорексією — емоційного розладу, і непереможним бажанням схуднути.

"Я не хотіла говорити про те, що відбувається. Все, що я говорила: "у мене все в порядку"".

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Sometimes when life throws a shit storm your way you just have to focus on the positives! So this is me after my crazy day honouring my bloated and cramping period belly! Because me getting my period after everything I've put my body through is a miracle! So thank you body for always looking after me! I love you ♥️ And I will wear my bloated belly and extra weight from my cheese cravings 😂 with pride! Because I'm pretty fabulous and so are you!!! Keep going my darlings and honour your body, you are a walking miracle 😘 Lots of love, Connie 💕 #edcommunity#eatingdisorder#anawho#fuckana#prorecovery#depressed#anxiety#edworrior#edarmy#edfamiliy#realrecovery#mentalillness#edfam#bodypositive#edrecovery#bopo#period#girlproblems#yourbodyisamiracle#beautiful#selflove#lovemymiddle#embracethesquish#noairbrushedme#effyourbeautystandards#justdoyou

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У 2015 році в критичному стані Конні поклали в лікарню Сент-Джеймс в Лідсі. За прогнозами лікарів, жити дівчині залишалося лічені тижні. Її годували за допомогою спеціальної трубки, вона не могла самостійно пересуватися і майже не покидала інвалідне крісло. Шість місяців вона провела в лікарні, поки її вага не відновився до нормальної позначки.

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Yes I post a lot of revealing pictures. Yes this is particularly sexy. No you do not get to sexualise me without my consent or call me a slut for posting a picture I feel GOOD in! My body is mine and I deserve to celebrate it! I don't post pictures of myself to get attention from anyone, I do it for people who look at my pictures and feel empowered! I do it for people who read my posts and know it's ok to 👏🏻HAVE 👏🏻ANY👏🏻BODY👏🏻 I do it for people struggling with mental illness, to show them that it is possible to love yourself again! And I do it for myself, to feel hella good!! And if I can make even 1 person feel better about themselves I will always do it! Be sexy for yourself! Be confident for yourself! And don't listen to a society that want's to control out bodies, rights and thoughts! So ladies... and gents, be fabulous and just do you! - - Post inspired by the beautiful @chooselifewarrior 💕 #edcommunity#eatingdisorder#anawho#fuckana#prorecovery#depressed#anxiety#edworrior#edarmy#edfamiliy#realrecovery#mentalillness#edfam#recoveryispossible#anorexianervosa#fuckanorexia#nourishtoflorish#nourishnotpunish#nourishyourbody#fighting#foodblogger#bodypositive#edrecovery#bopo#effyourbeautystandards#norightwaytobeawoman#doyou

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Проте депресія не покидала дівчину. Тоді вона звернулася до соціальних мереж - спільноті людей, що зупиняються після анорексії. З тих пір Конні стала любити своє тіло і почала публікувати фотографії, як вона їсть ту їжу, яка довгий час її лякала, наприклад шоколад.

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I'm not going to lie I'm really scared of posting this picture! For years I've been terrified of eating in public. I hated the way my face scrunched up. I thought my nose looked too big. I thought people where judging me. I used to pretend I'd already eaten, I'd only let myself eat in private. I thought people would think I was greedy and disgusting. But eating is the most normal and accepted things you can do! EVERYONE DESERVES FOOD!!! And I promise even if you think people are judging you there probably just focused on their food or their life not on how much or little you've eaten. Yes I still feel really anxious eating in public, but I like the cute way my face crinkles and my not so perfect features and the fact that food usually ends up all over my face (I'm just quite clumsy hehe!) So when I'm feeling super Christmasy and need cheering up I'll sure as hell go and get my fav pret sandwich filled with Christmasy goodness and enjoy it!!! I love going out to eat and I love that this is the first year in god knows how long that I've been able to do it! So I'm taking full advantage because the REAL Connie actually loves the taste of good food! It's my life and I'm going to live it exactly how I want to! Screw anxiety! Screw ED! I'm going to do me!!! #edcommunity#eatingdisorder#anawho#fuckana#prorecovery#depressed#anxiety#edworrior#edarmy#edfamiliy#realrecovery#mentalillness#edfam#recoveryispossible#bodypositive#edrecovery#christmas#pobo#selfcare#doyou#perfectlyimperfect#foodlove#selflove

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Зараз Конні допомагає іншим страждають на анорексію. Вона завела аккаунт в инстаграмі в 2016 році. Зараз на неї підписані 88 тисяч осіб. Вона викладає свої фотографії під час хвороби і зараз.

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The girl on the left was me at exactly this time last year. I had been Emergancy admitted to hospital, had an ng tube forced on me, and confined to my bed on New Year's Eve. It was the worst night of my life. In that picture me and my boyfriend were both holding back tears. Trying to smile for the camera and the other lovely people giving up their evenings to keep me company. But it was so hard. One by one all my friends and family left. Apart from 1 she refused to leave and stayed with me all night, for that I will love her forever. Nobody could believe I'd gotten to that point. Neither did I. My friend held my hand and stroked my hair while I cried and we watched the fireworks from my hospital bed. The doctor told me I wouldn't make it through the night (I told her not to tell anyone, I didn't believe her) I'm not telling you this for sympathy or attention I'm telling you because if you told me on that day, after I'd spoken to the doctors on my ward, that this time next year I would be getting ready for a big meal and going to a party in a tight play suit I honestly would have told you to fuck off. You've honestly gone insane! I wasn't planning to make it to this year. But here I am!! The girl on the right, full of life, full of love and full of food!!! Getting ready to hopefully have the first good new year of her life. Every year doesn't have to be good. I've gone through hell this yearr! In January I was begging for death and today I'm going to dance my way into 2017, the year of me!!! The year to recover be happy and love myself more everyday. So don't put pressure on this year to be great because it might not be but I promise you'll always have days or months or just little moments where everything is magical. 👈🏻that is what it about, not permanent happiness just beautiful everyday moments! So take the bad and take the good as it comes, things will be better, things might be worse but it will always keep changing! Bring on 2017!!! Happy new year!! 😘💕 Thank you so much to you all, I wouldn't be here without you! #positivebeatsperfect

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"Коли я дивилася на себе, я бачила, що я недосконала: маленькі груди, складки на животі, целюліт. Але живіт був найбільш ненависним. Я хотіла, щоб він був ідеально плоским. Я хотіла виглядати як дівчата, які мені подобалися. Але не виходило, що б я не робила. Я вправлялася, сиділа на дієтах, моя вага падала, але живіт все ще був! У той час я не розуміла, що у жінок, на яких я рівнялася, були недоліки".

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Self love transformation!! These are the same girl just 6 months apart. Inspired by #selflovebootcamp I went back to my first post on this account, the difference from then to now is shocking! On the left is me at the end of June, this is some of what I wrote; 💕 "having a difficult day, I wore this dress all day even though it shows my body shape and makes me feel really self conscious- proving to myself that I can and everything will be ok. I want to accept myself. It's just a hell of a battle getting Ana to shut up and leave me alone. There's a little voice inside my head telling me I don't deserve it... it's the hardest thing I've ever done. I feel like I'm trying to tear out my heart." 💕 I remember taking that picture, I hid myself with my arms and my phone so you couldn't really see me... look at me now!!! I'll wear tight clothes, show off my bloat and take pictures in my underwear if I want to!! I get a lot of messages asking how I did it. How I learnt to love myself. The answer is; one day at a time, I never shut anyone out and tried to talk about what I was struggling with. And I set myself challenges that I could achieve! This account is my outlet, it helps me so much! I honestly feel like I can take on the world! A few nasty comments won't get me down for long!!! I'm ready to fight for change, for happiness and for people to be able to love the skin their in all over the world!!! You helped me change in 6 months. I'm sure as hell going to keep going and help as many people as I can along the way!! Love you endlessly and never give up on yourself. I know you can do it!!! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 #positivebeatsperfect

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I LOVE ME! - 💋 I'm always getting told to put more clothes on... "Why can't you say that with your top on" "That's disgusting, put it away" "Have you lost all modesty?" 💋 You know what?! No! I spent years and years despising myself and hiding away my body. I hid behind clothes. I hid behind hair. I hid behind makeup. I hid behind fake personalities. I hid behind the idea that I NEEDED to cover up. (Girls need to be 'modest' right?!) - 💋 Fuck that! Why should I hide? I LOVE ME! And I'll wear what I want! Fully clothed, topless, underwear, naked... or just throw a pillow on there - 💋 I'm freaking FABULOUS whatever I wear! ... and if you don't like it, you know where the door is 💋 Photography 📷 @mimi.inglis.photogrpahy #positivebeatsperfect

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Конні сподівається, що її досвід допоможе іншим. Тепер Конні любить своє тіло і закликає до цього інших. Повнота прикрашає дівчат, а плоский живіт - не запорука успіху.

"Мені подобається допомагати людям, особливо тим, хто йде до одужання. Вони повинні знати, що не самотні у своїй боротьбі. Я думаю, що люди підписуються на мене, тому що я говорю правду, а не показую тільки позитивну сторону одужання. Я розповідаю , як це складно ".

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At the moment I really don’t know how to feel. - 💖 Next week my partner, my best friend will be moving to LA. The other side of the world. - 💖 I’m so endlessly proud of him. I’m so excited for him. But I can’t help feeling a bit broken and alone. - 💖 This human means EVERYTHING to me. We have been through hell and back together. And I know that without him I wouldn’t be here today. - 💖 We’ve been together for nearly 4 years. Endured so more pain but so much more love. We’ve gotten through an eating disorder, a section, my mental illness constantly trying to tear us apart. So much betrayal. And gradually building back the trust that I shattered. This human knows me better than I know myself. And I love him beyond words. - 💖 This move isn’t the end, I’ll go out and see him as much as I can afford to. But We haven’t spent more than a week apart in the whole time we’ve known each other. - 💖 He will be in America and I’ll be here in the uk. And I’m going through such a wurlwind of emotions. It’s going to be such a massive adjustment but I feel positive we can do it. - 💖 In the meantime though I’m going to allow myself to just feel. Be raw. Laugh, cry, scream. To adjust. - 💖 I love you Jarrod and I hope this will only make us stronger! Bring it on world! 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 #positivebeatsperfect

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Нагадаємо, дівчина в гонитві за красою скинула 140 кілограм зайвої ваги. Але попереду її чекала набагато більш страшне випробування.

Як повідомляв портал "Знай.uа", дівчині, яка звикла перемагати і наполегливо йти до своєї мети довелося побороти страшну хворобу.

Також "Знай.uа" писав, ці продукти не тільки смачні, але і можуть дійсно допомогти впоратися зі стресом.